In 2014, I left the life I’m used to living to move to a different country and be with my fiance. It wasn’t a difficult decision since I have prayed thoroughly about it for years. But it wasn’t easy to let go of my comfortable life with my family and friends in it. 

I am a very competitive person and I like to really plan out things. I’ve planned out my life before the move. I got so confident with my own abilities and did not anticipate that God has different plans for me. 

Over the course of years while adjusting to my new life, I have experienced depression. For the first time, I’ve lived in isolation with only my husband as my physical friend. I had no family members to go to or even physical friends to hug. From being a career-driven woman, I became a fulltime housewife. I’ve chased several opportunities but circumstances and timing don’t seem to match.

I was not willing to give up and I kept holding on to my past life. Though I could clearly hear God and what He desires for me to do, I insisted on doing my own thing. I did blogging and writing in the past and gained quite an audience but decided to shut it down because I no longer feel fulfilled doing it. I ran an e-commerce business for two years and just when everything is starting to go well, the unexpected happened.

The business I took care for two years started to get shattered as the global pandemic hits. Despite the circumstances, I felt a sense of peace more than ever. I gained clarity about what God really wants for me. I gained the courage to embrace what lies ahead and willingly surrender to His will.